Introverted Mom

The more kids I have, the more I cherish the quiet moments. I find that I get in my flow state, thinking my thoughts and dreaming my dreams. The silence envelops me and I get lost inside myself. There aren’t any complaints, arguments, or needs to attend to. Just me.

I want to find contentment in motherhood though, not just as myself with my own personal goals and dreams. I want to find that same level of happiness amidst the chaos, and with my kids. To actually sit on the floor with them and play a game. To take the time to notice those little moments of joy, and to cherish those as much as my quiet moments.

As an introvert, it makes sense that I get my energy from being alone. From delving deep inside myself and sorting life out. I want to take that energy and apply it to the hours as a mom, instead of viewing those mom hours as a drain of my energy. Because with kids, life isn’t quiet - and I wouldn’t want it to be. There would be something wrong if my kids didn’t fight, play, make noise or messes. They need to do all these things as kids, as they learn and grow up.

It’s a healthy sign that our house is full of life and noise, both the happy ones and the not so happy ones. It’s a good reminder for me to lower my expectations for the day. To really soak in those quiet moments when they happen, but to also allow the loud moments to fill a part of me that the quiet ones can’t.