When It Hurts Too Much

Do you trust your emotions?

Do you trust your heart?

When I was struggling with depression, I was trying to protect my heart.

I was trying to block out all emotions so I didn’t have to feel.

Feeling hurt too much.

But I’ve always been a feeler, so denying this part of me was like rejecting myself.

It was rejecting myself.

But how do you trust your emotions, when the emotions you are feeling are hopeless, depressed, helpless?

How do you trust your heart, when it hurts so much?

It’s knowing that emotions are created from the thoughts in your head.

It’s knowing that the emotions you are feeling aren’t you, just as your thoughts aren’t you.

It’s being able to take one step back from what you are feeling, and being able to simply experience it.

I can feel depressed, and still be me.

I can feel defeated, and still know that my life is worth something.

I can feel rejected, and know that I’ve still got me.

Learning to trust yourself, your heart, your emotions – this process needs love.

Love for you, for your kids, for your husband.

That unconditional love, where you love no matter what.

No matter how much you hurt, no matter how much you want to block it out again.

It’s leaning into that pain, instead of shutting it out.

It’s not easy, but it’s the path that will lead you to where you want to go.

Not because you need to get there so that you can be more worthy, but simply because it’s where you want to be.

Reach out – take the hand that I’m offering you.

You don’t need to do this alone.

I’ve got you.