Faith, Life And Coaching

I sent an email out last week to my list, and it was so good that I wanted to share it here with the rest of you. [Also side note - are you on my email list yet? Why on earth not?!] Anyways, happy reading-

What is the point? Of life, of everything?

My brain has been giving me this question lately – without an answer. Only coming up with I don’t know what the point of anything is.

When we step back from our life, and look down on it, we can see that nothing really matters. It’s all just life, it’s all just a game of sorts. It really doesn’t matter what’s happening in our marriage, if our kids are excelling in school or not, if we have amazing friendships, or if we are hitting the goals that we set for ourselves. None of it actually matters.

I can see this, and because I see it, my brain wants to tell me that if nothing matters, then there is no point to anything. That if none of this matters, I may as well go back to Candy Crush and chocolate (it always comes back to this, doesn’t it? My brain must miss those days😊)

But if none of it matters, then it can matter because I choose to make it matter. If none of it matters, then I can go all in and know that whatever the outcome, it doesn’t mean anything about me. That I can show up in this life how I want to, because it’s how I want to be – not because I need to be a certain way. And thinking this thought, brings me back to my days when I was struggling with depression. That even when I was struggling with life and with faith in my darkest moments - I was still worthy. Just as worthy as I am today.

Do you believe you are worthy, exactly as you are? Even though you aren’t always the mom that you want to be, even though your kids don’t always behave how you’re trying to teach them, even though your life doesn’t look how you want it to. Your worth is inherent. Isn’t it beautiful?

The point of growing, of progressing, of setting and reaching goals isn’t so that we become a better person. It isn’t so that we somehow become more worthy or more enough. It isn’t so that we can love ourselves or so others can love us. The point is to see us. Who we are. Just a human, and that human is so loved. We aren’t perfect, and we don’t need to be. There is grace, there is love. There is unending love for us.

The point is to trust. To believe that God is guiding our lives, exactly as they should go. That all of this life and these lessons that we are learning is for a greater purpose. When we can lean into our faith, that’s when it becomes personal. When we can be scared and know that He is with us through all of it. Then comes peace.

What if we don’t need to know the answer? What if we can just sit in that emotion, and be okay with it? What if that is what we need to do in order to move through it?

What are you resisting? What does your brain not want to address? I’ve been fighting these thoughts for a long time. I’ve worked through some, but I knew that the bulk of it I hadn’t addressed yet.

You guys, I’m a coach. (Like you didn’t know that.) No but really, I emphasize this point to show you that no matter how well you know this work, there is so much benefit from getting coached. I was doing fine on my own, working through it as it came up, and just kind of going along. These thoughts would pop up every now and then and I would sometimes address them, and other times push them away. Fears of My business might become more important than my faith. Am I doing the right thing? Is this what God wants me to be doing? Maybe I’m just supposed to be at home with my kids.

All of these doubts kept eating at me, little by little. But they are all just thoughts. Thoughts that I could keep working through on my own, but thoughts that I gained more awareness of by working with my coach. Thoughts that I was able to separate from faster, to see what wasn’t working and to choose what serves me more.

And above that? I can trust that God is guiding me in this too. Just as He has guided me in everything else in my life, I can trust that He will be with me as I build my business too. I can trust that the new me that I’m becoming also wants to remain in faith.

And with that trust, that peace? Comes a letting go. A letting go of the resistance, the fear, the doubt, all of it.

I choose to continue setting goals in my business and in life, simply because it’s who I want to be in this world. And if nothing works out the way that I want it to, it doesn’t matter.

It doesn’t matter.

Not because there’s no point in trying in the first place, but because what I do has no effect on my worthiness. It’s letting go and going all in.

What a beautiful paradox.