You Have Everything You Need

I’ve been through postpartum depression six times, with a potential Round #7 coming up.

I’m not dreading it this time though, like I have in the past; it always felt like this dark cloud that was looming on the horizon, drawing ever nearer.

I’m also not afraid of it – but not in the way that I was last time: Last postpartum I wasn’t afraid because I didn’t think that I would get it again. I was blissfully ignorant, expecting that postpartum to be magically perfect all of a sudden.

This time I’m not afraid of it because I know that if it comes, I’ll be ready for it – or as ready as one can be for feeling like kaka 90% of the time. I have my support in place: both internal and external.

I know that if it comes, it isn’t a sign that I’m truly broken or that this is the mom I’m meant to be. I know that there’s something for me to learn on a deeper level.

And in case you’re getting the wrong picture here, I’m also not just like Yay! I’m so excited that I get to go through PPD again! It’s for sure not my favorite part of life, and I’m not just happy it’s here. But like one of my recent emails about the stinky old uncle coming to visit, I’m okay that it’s here.

Plus, this time especially, there’s purpose in the pain.

As you know, I’ll be launching How To Heal this September. This is a 3-month course that will walk you through your postpartum depression to where you feel like yourself and can be happy again. I have most of the ground work laid out for the course now, but I will be going back through and revising it as I go through this postpartum.

Because I know that once you’re past it, you forget much of what it was actually like – similar to what we do with childbirth. Your brain glosses over it all, and yeah you remember that it was hard and it took a lot to get through it, but you also just don’t even want to go there. I want to create a resource while I’m in the hard, so that every mom from here on out doesn’t have to go through that hard alone.

I’ll also be launching my first guided postpartum journal with this group – everyone who joins will get a physical copy in their welcome package. That almost feels like a dream: I’ll actually be holding my first published book in my hands?!

Another thing that I’m doing to make sure this course is exactly what you need, is that I’ll be starting an Advanced Certification in Trauma Informed Coaching this May. This certification is with my coach that I’ve been working with for a year and a half now.

She is the coach who has literally changed my life. She’s taught me a level of safety with myself that I’ve never had before.

Yesterday I recorded an impromptu video for the coaches that are considering joining us in the certification (you can watch that here if you’re curious:), and I could’ve just bawled through the whole thing because of how grateful I am that she does this work. She didn’t write me off, thinking that I’m a failure or too complicated or messed up or that I just need to go see a therapist instead of work with her. She stuck with me, believing that I had everything that I needed in order to heal – which is one of the best gifts I’ve ever been given.

If any of this sounds like you, you should for sure join us this fall.

Remember that when you sign up by tonight at midnight, you’ll also get a free ticket to our next in person retreat as a special gift to you. Our retreats are a place to open up, meet friends, and to heal. Just like one mom said who was at our last weekend together:

“The retreat went above and beyond my expectations, and I actually was looking forward to it and thought it would be really good. It was like God knew what each of us needed that weekend and made sure we were all there right where we needed to be. The depth of conversation during our coaching sessions was so good, and even on the in between time, the conversation was also real and vulnerable. I feel like I gained 9 new friends, and am so thankful I was able to be there.

The in-person coaching, seeing others work through things, and feeling the energy in the room, it was powerful. It brought up things in my life that were long buried and that I didn’t expect, but yet it just felt so natural and right to work through the things that came up for me. It opened up a whole new level of understanding and confidence in myself.”

If you have any questions, email me and I’ll be happy to answer them.

Otherwise, join us in the small group this fall, and watch the trajectory of your life change forever. You can pay in full here, choose the monthly payment plan here.

Just like my coach didn’t give up on me, I haven’t given up on you.

Healing is possible.